Some people make me really mad.
A mix of different arguments and dialogues I've participated in, with best friends, good friends, friends, people I care about, used to care about, don't give a shit about, people I love, used to love, and myself; has created a theme of thoughts and feelings for me. Thoughts about how I should act upon certain things like an opinion, or a strange letter, or simply judging people. I later thought of these "how to do" ideas as principles. I'm not sure if that is a good word to call them. It probably is.
The idea of "principles" came to my attention through experiencing Japanese stories - I kind of feel like I've talked about them before- Something I first noticed when I watched "Seven Samurai". What fascinated me was that the heroes in that movie were hungry and poor. And decided to protect that village for some little money and food. Not honor and glory. I noticed it again when I saw "yojimbu" (I'm not sure if i'm spelling this correctly ), Characters that do their best to keep their word. And I'm not sure how that can become close to reality. They probably can! I experienced these kinds of ideas later when I got into Japanese anime, something regarded by the majority of people by a children's medium, and by some of my friends and I and probably other people too, as one of the best things we've ever experienced in our lives. You can easily see characters that are really perverted, In our societies' terms, and are heroes, and actually have thought-provoking ideas too. Something that is pretty much true about a lot of great human beings in history.
These kinds of characters, that might kill a number of people, and might lie to everyone, and might do anything they can to save their village, are characters hat I haven't experienced much in stories coming out of other cultures. These "principles" that these characters have, are then complemented by very simple goals and often very difficult goals : I want to become the head of the village, I want to protect my brother, I want to kill my brother, I want to save my friend, I want to have fun.
I mentioned all of these ( and I'll get back to them soon) , just to say that I've been pretty mad( or annoyed? ) at a bunch of people these days.
An old teacher of mine , recently posted something about this woman, Iranian woman, that got the highest prize in mathematics. He said : She probably tried very hard, and the great Satan ( an Ironic reference to what the Iranian government used to call the US when we were kids ) provided the infrastructure of her success. What has Iran got to do with it? ( referring to a massive amount of publicity created by happy Iranian people posting stuff about an Iran woman getting the best possible honor in mathematics. Underlying this post , he is criticizing Iran's very bad policies towards scientific progress, and other stuff too).
There was a lot of angry comments, specially by a few of my high-school friends. Why angry ? because we thought of his remarks on this story as being pretty fanatic. Because he used to have the same kind of strong arguments and opinions when he was our teacher in Iran ( and he is in the united states now ) , only his arguments were strongly religious and filled with anti-west and really annoying for us.
There's probably nothing wrong with taking any of these sides that he has taken. But the problem is if you have very strong beliefs and opinions. really really really strong beliefs and opinions. and then you suddenly change them, and again have really really really strong beliefs and opinions, only in a different ( usually opposing to the first belief system) direction. Then you got to realize that something is definitely wrong with the way you think about stuff. And people get angry at you. And I think people are right.
It's kind of depressing for me, when people claim, and publicly present really strong ideas of morality, and then cannot really keep up with their public mask. And are not even smart enough to deceive people. Think of a person, who walks hand in hand with a girl he claims he loves ( maybe he does) and is in a relationship with her ( the relationship status does seem pretty typical and normal ) and then sleeps with other girls, in a way that friends of him find out, And still continues to keep up his public "mask". This kind of inconsistency becomes really depressing when this types of characters constantly talk about the dishonesty of the US government.
A small example of this kind of behavior is people who constantly talks about progress and success, and how boring and dumb other people are, and then they are pretty happy and even more boring when they get a shitty fucked up job.
There is a huge difference between morality and "principles" . You are bound to keep up with morals ( most of the times with good reasoning behind it), defined by your society, cultural system, etc. on the other hand, principles are defined by the individual and are strong decisions. These principles can be taught and passed along. but they are definitely not universal. Unlike moralities which are considered to be universal. Principles are yours to keep up with. And if you don't its your own problem and probably loss.
I think what "principles" can create is a better sense of consistency, and less bullshitting.
The sad thing is though, when you talk about these kinds of ideas, something like having principles and shit, and how good being consistent is, how better it is to be consistent with bad moralities, than a dishonest human rights mother-fucking activist. After a while you realize, it is really easy to become an inconsistent and dishonest asshole. And at this moment, through my insomnia and active brain. I feel like I might be one of the zombies.
Not even sure if i care or not about it.
Sometimes I get really mad at my self.
and ....
Some people make me really mad!
And I really don't have any problems with, and actually love a great number of people.
