It's funny how things turn out. When you think you have the ability to analyze something or someone. To understand it, and in case you need to take action upon it, to do it the best possible way. When you have theories for people and places and things and actions and feelings and relationships. And you think you have a grasp over then, at least conceptually. Then something unexpected happens, someone says something to you, something which is not really uncalled for. And you realize you have dealt with many problems. You have dealt with loss and love and death and failure. But something unexpected breaks your temple. And then it's more difficult to build it back up again. It's then that you fully understand that you rationalize your environment and yourself excessively. And the world does not move baeed on your values or your fears
Having self confidence is better than acting on honesty and principles.
And here you are. Doing it again. Not revolutionalizing yourself. Just gradually moving in a direction that is unknown to you. And all you can do is hope that next time, Your values align with of the world's, and hope that next time you are better fit to run. Because the people that are, most probably win, as they have so far.
