PhD in Survival .

If I'm trying to write something .
If I'm trying to keep contact . Even minimum .
If I'm trying to keep feeling something , even though against the odds .
If I soundtrack my life with songs by Leonard Cohen. or Cave.
If I sit on a chair all day .
If sometimes I smile, If sometimes I feel happy when I'm with people .
Or read a stupid poem out loud .
Or laugh at stupid jokes.
...

If you get mad at people .
If you get mad at me.
If you hate a movie .
If you hate a person .
If you feel like laughing with people .
If you try to smile with people.
If you network.
If you don't want to see . or talk . or respond.
If you like to be mysterious .
If you like to progress.
If you like to hug people.
If you want to have fun .
If you want to be angry.
If you want to create a hole in the wall.
If you feel numb .
If you feel homesick .
If you miss people .
If you blame me.
If you blame your family.
If you blame the United States.
If you blame Iran .
If you blame religion .
If you blame us .
If you don't give a shit.

It's all to prevent yourself from being hurt.
It's all to survive.
If it's not ,
It's all to make me feel like a professor .

If you cry ,
If you laugh
If you smile
If you frown .
If you laugh.

It's all because ...
I'm a professor .